September 24th, 2006


I Think I Was Channeling My Mother

So my parents are back from their trip. Or, more accurately, my dad is back. Unfortunately, my mom's flight to Virginia was cancelled, so she's going to stay overnight in New York with a friend and fly out tomorrow.

I guess my week of craziness is over. Although I still feels really off-balanced, like my head is swimming. I feel like I'm trying to re-adjust to "normal" life, but after this week I'm leaving my job, and I've been doing that since mid-2005. I don't really know what to expect the following week. Or even this week for that matter.

At least my parents had a good trip. My mom was buying a lot, maybe that accounts for all the figures I wanted. It's started to wear off, though. Yesterday I went to Toys R Us and saw a Justice Lords 3-pack that included Superman, Batman, and Hawkgirl, but I didn't buy it. Maybe it was because I had my heart set on having a Justice Lords Wonder Woman too, or maybe it was because I realized that material possessions are fleeting and that to be happy with myself and fill whatever void I'm feeling, I need to find something more fulfilling in my life that has substance.

I don't even have the energy to be angry at my parents anymore. When I was talking to them today, my voice sounded old and tired. It's weird, I'm looking forward to the future, but at the same time, my mind is in so many places at once, I can't focus. Ugh, okay, well, I have a bit of good news, so I'll save that for tomorrow when I can talk about it in detail.