February 23rd, 2006


The Problems I Have With Socializing

I've never been comfortable socializing. In elementary school, it sucked, I was weird, whatever. In high school, I dunno, I could avoid people (and I was weird). In college I was just isolated for the most part. Things are different now, though, and I was just talking to my friend about this.

I like meeting new people, but I don't like being in a group of people. I don't like small talk (especially with people I'm not all that close to), and I hate forced conversations. But generally, I get along really well with people. It's weird.

Me at work is a good example. When I worked at Residential Life at school, I was a bit shy at first, but then I was friendly with everyone. I wasn't the most talkative, but I enjoyed the company of my co-workers. Even work now, I like and get along with the people I work with (being in the same room with them for hours at a time helps).

At the same time, I can't be bothered to care about some people. Like if a random stranger talks to me, I'll be polite, but I usually feel uncomfortable and won't be interested in what they have to say. Even when my parents take me to dinner with friends or relatives, it feels so forced. That just puts me off with whoever I'm supposed to be interacting with. At work it's different because even though we're sorta forced to be together, we aren't required to talk to each other. We can do our own thing, we can strike up a casual conversation, but it's really casual.

I don't want to come off looking rude or angry or bothered or embarassed, but a lot of the time I do just because it takes me a while to warm up to certain people. I don't really know what it is, maybe it's partly because I find a lot of people hard to relate to or maybe it's because I don't have a lot to say. Whatever it is, it just bugs me that things like this can happen.

DVDs, TPBs, HCs, and Chicken Parm

I got not one but TWO Amazon orders today! Woo-hoo! This must be what it feels like to be Daffy Dork (only still rational)!!!

Work was pretty much same old same old, but I made chicken parm last night and brought it in for everyone. They seemed to enjoy it, so I'm happy with that.

When I got home from work, I saw an Amazon package in the door and a small one in the mail box. The one in the mail box was the Ultimate Avengers DVD I pre-ordered that came out on Tuesday. I watched it tonight, and I'm too pumped from seeing some of my favorite heroes animted to give it an objective review, so I'll wait a while.

The other box was another order I made. I sorta got a little excited (with my internship over, I've been making twice as much a week), so I ordered a bunch of things when I pre-ordered my Justice League and Batman Beyond DVDs. I thought they'd all come together, but they shipped the books separately.

So what I got was Invincible The Ultimate Collection 1 (I like what I've seen of Kirkman so far, and I've been hearing great stuff about Invincible), Showcase Presents Justice League of America (I still need to finish my Green Lantern), Batman Year One (because unlike Phantasm and Weatherman, I actually haven't read it, but I'm glad I got the hardcover), and The DC Stories of Alan Moore (so now I can finally find out what you get for the man who has everything as well as whatever happened to the Man of Tomorrow).

And yes, I am very, VERY happy!